I’m Baptized so Piss Off

Self-doubt is a cold and barren companion
Self-doubt is a cold and barren companion

I struggle with self-doubt.

Quite possibly I should not.  I am well educated, have 5 beautiful and healthy children, a loving husband, and more books on my Kindle than I know what to do with.

But I often feel like I am shit at everything.

I have no career despite my expensive education.  I used to be many things – a teacher, a lawyer, a civil servant – but because of my family and my Asperger’s, each of those careers is now…impractical.

These days I beaver away at writing with little discernable success.  As a 21st century writer, success is measured in sales, yes, but also in the number of “likes” your Facebook page has and how many Twitter followers you catch.

I have been at this for 3 years.  My Facebook page has 314 likes.  I know bloggers that have been at it for 3 months and have 3 times as many followers.

It can be…disheartening. Continue reading I’m Baptized so Piss Off